i love my older brother. i have the pleasure of speaking to him randomly once every two months or so. we suck at keeping in contact. but everytime we talk we go back to where we left off. today, i found out that he's renovating his summer holiday house in france (to be completed next summer) his eldest daughter is turning thirteen this year (i remember when she was two) and that he's taking me pubbing for my birthday in june.

such a nice conversation tonight.
i love him.
he's the best at making fun of dad too.

things to realise:

He is in sovereign control of all that concerns me, His child.

God does not ask us to understand His ways, but He asks us to trust Him implicitly. He sees the whole, eternal picture.

my lack of faith does not nullify His faithfulness

i am not the point - He is. it is not about me getting out of suffocating pain, it is about His Son being revealed in me, about God's image being released in me

(taken from mary duvel's gospel women study - college church)

i want to be her.
for just one day.
she seems so carefree.

one of my friends took this
he is amazing

i am joyful
Jesus is amazing
i need to know that more

i just watched john stott on dvd
the bible and christian life
the section i watched was about making an impact on society
it was a great reminder about what we are here to do, something that gets so easily forgotten in our daily lives

thought i'd share something he ended on

i am only one
but i am one
i can't do everything
but i can do something
what i can do i ought to do
and what i ought to do, by the grace of God i will do

i left sydney nine months ago

i have decided on some names for my kids
i thought i should write them down because i always seem to forget

boys - josh and noah
girls - charlotte and (undecided)